
To You, Who Are Struggling with an Eating Disorder or Disordered Eating in the Lead-Up to
:I see you, and I understand what you are going through. The tenseness that is creeping up as people are discussing “The Fast.” I can empathize if the urges are getting stronger as the days approach.
And here I am, as someone who has recovered from my own eating disorder, urging you not to fast even if those around you are.
I am not even telling you this because the Torah clearly indicates that those who are ill are not supposed to fast or because of the detriments to your physical health, because that is only the tip of the iceberg.
I am telling you this because you deserve recovery in 5783.
Recovery is possible for you, and fasting is likely to take you further away from this. Instead, it is likely to awaken your eating disorder and make it stronger – and in my experience, you will not feel the pain of it dissipate at sundown with the relief of eating a bagel, as others will.
At Yom Kippur, we wish one another "a safe and easy fast," but for those of us with eating disorders, it will be neither safe nor easy. It will be dangerous and detrimental. Instead of focusing on the meaning of the holiday or the fast of affliction, it will feel like total numbness.
Additionally, Yom Kippur is about not doing so for the day. And I promise you: That takes so much more strength than sustaining an eating disorder ever did.
, repentance, apologizing for the ways you hurt others. I discovered through recovery that the best apology is recovering. One of the best ways to show t'shuvah is by challenging your eating disorder – and that means not fasting. It means choosing the harder option – choosing to adequately nourish your body, even when others around you areRemember that recovery is a form of t'shuvah, as you are not just returning to your authentic self with an illness or food rules, but to a recreated one. One who has turned the page and can be present. It is possible – and you deserve peace for yourself, in 5783 and beyond.
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Someone Who is Not Fasting, Even Though She is Recovered from Her Eating Disorder, Because She Knows to Honor the Best Interests of Her Body and Soul
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